Favorite names from A-Z...

Found a post somewhere on yahoo asking people to list from A to Z their favorite names (boys & girls), so tha's what I'm going to do! Hahaha!

A- Alyce, Asher
B- Bella, Benjamin
C- Calliope, Chester
D- Delilah, Dominic
E- Emilie, Ethan 
F- Fiona, Finley
G- Gemma, Graham
H- Hermione, Heath
I- Isolde, Ian
J- Juliet, Jacob
K- Keira, Kellen
L- Lily, Lennon
M- Mae, Mason
N- Nevada, Noah
O- October, Oliver
P- Poppy, Padgett
Q- Quinlynn, Quentin
R- Roselyn, Reid ( I almost chose Renesmee. Damn Twilight series. It is a cute name though. Can't hate.)
S- Sophia, Sawyer
T- Tulip, Tyler
U- Unity, Ulysses
V- Violet, Viktor (Venice was a close second-girl)
W- Winter, Wyatt (Whisper was a close second-girl)
X- Xaviera, Xavier
Y- Yvian, Yves
Z- Zeppelin, Zealand

I love these names.

Emilie Mae

October Lily

Sophia Bella/ Bella Sophia

Ethan Benjamin

Eli Jacob

Mason Oliver

<3<3

I wish someone would start popping out some babies and use these names. Haha.

Officially 23.

As of yesterday I am officially 23 years old. Or shall I say young? Haha! I started off a little depressed, which is how I've been non stop for I don't know a week or two. The day got much much better though. I had chicken and yellow rice and ice cream cake with my Mom, Aunt Linda, and Grandmother. Headed out to Olive Garden with Patia and afterwards we walked over to the Books A Million to work off a little bit of our food.

All my friends on facebook said happy birthday to me. Which is crazy! I felt much more "popular" than I really am.

Either way it made me happy. Woo!

Also tonight I'm going to eat with Rita and we're going to see Cloudy with a chance of meatballs. I'm excited.

Update on my video::::: The video is coming soon... Exciting times! I have lots of ideas and I'm going to put some into motion hopefully today.

I think your Smaby key is stuck.

Haha!

Made my day! <3

Weight.

I need to lose weight. I keep saying this to myself. Over and over and over again. I have hit the 270lb mark and I don't know how I let it get this far. I'm depressed all the time. I feel like my weight is holding me back from the things I want to do. Also I'm pretty sure the weight isnt helping the crappy knees and back problem. So I am going to lose the weight- all the weight [eventually.] I'm not going to do this for other people, I'm doing this for myself becaue I want to be happy and I want to be healthy. I need to.

Weight Watchers is my drug of choice again. I did "good" on it the first time so why not try again? They say I should weigh between 130 and 160. Gah!

Unnamed recipe.

I mixed some shit I had lying around the cabinet. I've never seen this "thing" that I made anywhere else but it turned out pretty damn delicious! Haha!


Ingredients:

(1 can)- Green Giant Cut green beans
(1 can)- Rotel Diced tomatoes with Lime juice and cilantro
(1 box)- Betty Crocker Au Gratin potatoes
(1 box)- Betty Crocker Scalloped potatoes
(1 box)- Kraft Macaroni and cheese
(1 box)- Green Giant Frozen broccoli spears in butter sauce
(4 Tbsp)- Progresso Italian Style bread crumbs
(20 individual)- Pringles Smokin' hot ranch
(20 individual)- Pringles Barbeque

Steps:

Put Pringles into a baggie and smash into crumbs. Mix well- bread crumbs with Pringles crumbs.

Cook Scalloped potatoes.

While potatoes are cooking mix green beans and diced tomatos in a bowl and heat them in the microwave for 2-3 minutes.

Place scalloped potatoes in the pan making an even bottom layer.

Spread green bean mixture over top, making a second layer.

Cook Au Gratin potatoes.

Spread au gratin potatoes evenly making a third layer in your pan.

Sprinkle just a enough crumb mixture over the top to barely cover the potatoes.

Begin cooking mac and cheese.

While mac and cheese is cooking remove frozen broccoli from freezer and heat as directed on the box.

Once heated up- spread broccoli in pan making the fourth layer.

Pour mac and cheese evenly over the broccoli and other three layers.

Sprinkle crumb mixture evenly over top of dish- using all remaining mixture.

Preheat oven to 400F.

Bake 10-15 minutes. (Depending on oven)






VIOLA!!!!

Love is:

Honest (Honesty)
Faith
Laughter
Strength
Trust
Friendship
Musical
Safe
Soul mates
Romantic
Magical
Fearless
Life changing
Healthy
Worth fightning for
Powerful
Colorful
Unbiased
In the air
Free
Comfortable
Simple
Complicated
Sexy
Tender


More to come...

Fat chicks are disgusting.

I. AM. FAT.

The title of this little rant was something I read from a guys point of view. Talk about sinking deeper into depression.

I don't feel feminine. I mean I am a girl and I feel like a girl but I feel so fat that I am just not comfortable in the cute women's clothes I would love to wear. I don't take care of myself like I want to, I don't do my hair everyday- I just throw it up, I don't wear makeup- I feel there's no point in it.

Guys don't look at me. They don't notice me, and when they do it seems as if they're just trying to get away as fast as possible. Like I'm going to eat them or something. I might be fat but I'm not that fat. You know? Yes I eat when I'm bored and depressed and pretty much all the time but it's not like over over eating like I would devour everything in my line of sight. I just eat here and there.

I dance. A lot. But I won't in front of people. I don't like being looked at. I don't like being judged.

No matter how much I hate myself because of how big I let myself become I can't/won't get off my fat ass to do something about it. I'm so afraid I'll lose myself if the weight goes. What if I lose weight and I'm still ugly? Shit I don't have the money for plastic surgery.

I have so many issues which now I know they stem from most of my childhood problems- Thanks dad!
I don't know how to fix what needs to be fixed.

I'm so lost.